Friday, November 16, 2012

The Big Day- October 26th

On Thursday October 25th I went to see my doctor for a routine weekly check-up on me and the baby. We did all the regular stuff and it was also a week to get an exam.  I was excited because it had been 2 weeks since my last exam and I wanted to see if I was any closer to meeting this little Peanut.  Sure enough I was 100% effaced, and still about 2 cm.  The doctor was reaching around down there a bit longer than anyone would like and she said to me she wasn't sure if she could feel his head or not, so she was going to bring in the ultrasound machine to be sure he was STILL head down as he had been in the previous weeks. 

She brought in the machine and sure enough, she found his little noggin way up by my belly-button and he was happily sitting on his bum.  Wow, I hadn't even ever considered the impact of a breech baby.  I know now that it affects just 5% of pregnancies and it really wasn't ever on my radar.  Especially since as late as 37 weeks he was head down.  The day before my appointment I had felt him moving a lot, I am convinced he flipped that day.  

It all happened pretty quickly, the doctor told me I had two options...schedule a C-section or try a "version" where they basically push on your belly for 3 or 4 minutes to try to flip the baby.  Since I was going to be 39 weeks she said they could try to flip the baby and if they succeeded they would induce me for a vaginal delivery, otherwise I would have a c-section right then.  I made an appointment for Monday at 7am.  We knew then that we were having a baby on Monday.  I was done working, we were going to be parents and it was going to be soon.  I had such mixed emotions, not what I had pictured, not what I wanted with surgery, but so completely out of my control.  We were going to have a baby and that is what mattered. 

That night Brian went up the street to Amalfi's and had dinner, we sat at the bar.  He was so calm and excited and reassured me.  The more I read the more scared I got about the procedures, so I stopped reading.  I decided to do a little research on positions you can take at home to create belly space in hopes that they flip.  I was going to attempt some of those.  

I didn't sleep very well that night, just figuring I was a little overwhelmed with the days to come.  It was Friday morning, I had planned to do a long walk with my Mom and Brian was headed to work.  He left early and at about 6:45 I woke up and was playing online on my phone and found a position to try to flip the baby.  So I rolled over and put my bum in the air and swayed a little bit...then I felt something a little wet in my I stood up and there was a full on gush....holy cow, I think my water broke. 

I called Brian and he was calm as usual, he had just gotten to the office and I needed him to head home.  I called my Mom and told her what I thought had happened, but I had gotten a little blood on the carpet and was most concerned about that.  I was shaking, so nervous, by myself and overwhelmed.  I never had pictured this either.  I got in the shower and got dressed, what does one wear to the hospital for something like this. I threw the final touches in my bag and was ready when Brian made it home. We grabbed our bags and got in the car.  We video taped a short interview to remember the drive with.  The whole time I was gushing the movies when the "water breaks" it is more like one gush and then things are cool...not real.  This was like a river running down my leg and that is what I told the check-in nurse which clearly sped up our process. 

The next few hours are a bit of blur.  We spent a little over 3 hours in the triage room, the whole time I was having contractions, but figured they were just the beginning of labor, but I was a bit surprised by how much they hurt.  No nurse really ever asked me about them, but I was getting more and more uncomfortable.  I was trying to be tough here, I mean they confirmed that the baby was still breech so it  isn't like I am going to go through labor.  We watched TV.  My parents were there. At about 10:45 we headed down to the operating room.  Brian wore a cool jump suit.  I walked to the OR, but I had to stop twice because the contractions were so strong.  I had to rest one more time with a contraction just before I got the spinal, which I was pretty darn excited to receive by that point.  

Everyone in the OR was a woman and they were all so nice.  I had never had surgery, it just seemed so much more comforting than I had ever pictured it.  Finally they had me set-up and Brian came in to sit by my head.  It was only minutes before I felt some pressure and some tugging and we heard the doctors say something like "wow, HE is really down there" and then they told us we had a baby boy.  Quickly a rush of additional nurses came through the door, we didn't hear any crying.  Our baby wasn't breathing at first and they had to get a few breaths to get things going...then he howled. I cried, I couldn't believe we had a son, a little baby Jake. 

Saturday, November 10, 2012

38 Weeks

This would be my last pregnant chalkboard picture, however, I certainly didn't think that at the time.  I absolutely loved being pregnant.  I don't miss it now that I have a real baby, but I really did love the time.  I feel lucky to have felt as good as I did especially after the first 13 weeks.  Pregnancy agrees with me I guess.  I hope I can remember the moments for a while because it was such a special time to bond with my new buddy. 

Things I will remember about my pregnancy:
The day we got the positive test, it still brings tears to my eyes
The first ultrasound where a little gummy bear was moving inside me and that lovely little heartbeat
The first morning I woke up with morning sickness, exactly 6 weeks and for the next 6 or so weeks I just wouldn't quite be myself
Telling my parents we were expecting in Palm Desert
Telling my sister I was pregnant as she packed up to move to New York, just 5 weeks at the time
Feeling the baby move for the first time, feeling it move everyday for months after and loving every nudge
Going for a run and stopping to pee 800 times
A ridiculous, and pretty annoyingly acute sense of smell
Brian's chuckles in the 3rd trimester when I would get undressed for bed and he would wonder who that is crawling into bed with him
Passing by people, strangers, and getting a smile just because I had a baby in my belly
Maternity clothes
The feeling that everyday I was doing something pretty cool without even trying. 

38 weeks...and the rest is history...

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

37 Weeks

Full term.  There is a full term baby inside of me. Holy cow.
You know I used to sometimes snicker at other people as they spoke about pregnancy and giving birth, talking about it like they were the first ones to ever do it.  I mean people have been doing this for millions of years right?  Well, I take back all my snickering, because now I understand when you are in it, it is the most fascinating miracle ever.  We are having a baby and yes, millions of people have done it millions of times - but we haven't. For the first time the combination of these two people is being created. That is just too darn cool. 

A little more of an exciting doctor appointment this past week...not just the regular pee in a cup, blood pressure, pulse, heart beat routine..but an actual exam.  Just to find that there is some progress and this body is gearing up to welcome Peanut. 

1cm and 50% effaced

Well, apologies if that was too much information, but as I will soon be measuring my life in centimeters  and ounces, it is only fitting. 

Can't wait to meet Peanut. 

By the way, we have had to move into the nursery, wet, cold, dark nights are upon us. 

Monday, October 22, 2012

Fall is in the air

I love the Farmer's Market this time of year.  The colors are so pretty, the offering changes from peaches and berries to squash and brussel sprouts.  I love the cool, crisp mornings and of course a breakfast burrito from my favorite vendor.  We had several things on our "baby bucket list" as we entered the third trimester and especially the final weeks and we have done almost all of them.  One that we had was to entertain a little dinner party at our house.  So the first weekend in October we had over 3 other couples, watched some football, ate some dinner, and had a few laughs.  It was a great excuse for all my fall decor to go to good use.  It was a fun evening with good friends.  I just love this time of year.  

36 Weeks

It is fun to look back at the early weeks now.  I have never not had a flat stomach (I know, lucky me...) so even when I was only small at around 20 weeks I felt so much more round than I looked.  Now when I look back I think, wow, I really just started looking pregnant!  This outfit makes it look really funny too.  Getting closer to the big day and apparently we have been busy since I am actually 38 weeks as I type this.  Still feeling good, just getting excited!

Friday, October 12, 2012

Maternity Shoot by Mal

A couple weeks ago our friend and talented photographer, Mallary, came to our house to help us capture this very special time, expecting Baby Lanter.  The pictures she took were simply amazing.  She made us look so good!  She has known "Chunk" for many years and was not surprised when he wanted to infuse a little of his "creativity" here and there.  They might not always perfectly showcase her photography talents, but they do absolutely capture the real us.  

Thank you Mallary, for being a part of preserving this feeling of happy anticipation for Brian and I.  Nobody could have done it better. 

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